Like damn this really took 10 months for me to do and now that it’s done I feel good.
Or did the depression let up enough to clean your room?
No my cleaning spur was induced by external pressures
Cleaning helps undeniably force you to acknowledge that you asserted control over your situation and did something good with it. Keep finding moments to overcome the negativity inherent in depressive thoughts and it will have nothing on you any more. Depression’s remedy is usually to take better care of yourself and it makes you not want to, this is why it’s so horrible to overcome, but it can be done with consistent benefits of the doubt to yourself and improving your surroundings one day at a time.
Depression is a vicious cycle of I’m not worthy of help - I cannot help myself because I’m not worthy. Those baby steps of helping yourself with small things like taking care of your surroundings and your hygiene etc help bump you out of that cycle for a brief time and with sustained effort and help for when it’s needed or the problem is out of your ability to control and it can be defeated.
I need to do this. I have ADHD and it seems like such an overwhelming task.
Have you tried buddying up?
I find that my ADHD gets less in the way when there’s someone “observing” me while I do the task, leading me to much less random trailing off. They don’t actually have to do anything but be present or maybe talk to you.
I do some of my best cleanings when my mum calls. Guaranteed hour long chat where I can be actually productive because even though it’s just a voice call, I feel judged enough to start doing something about it.
Revel in it. There are moments in life where you feel like you can do anything, and some where you feel like you can do nothing. Just store it in your heart and mind that both exist.
